I spent the whole of yesterday throwing up. legit. So anyway The nausea finnally goes down at like 11p.m. and the yes you guessed it I binged. I didn't binge alot. pretty sure it was around 1200 calories. :/

My sleep cycle is so messed up. It's one of Ana's new Ideas. Honestly that woman is crazy! But I still love her. She came up with this theory which is kinda sensible.... I go to sleep at six thirty seven in the morning when normal people wake up by the way.  And sleep all the way up to three or four. Depending on how tiered I am. That way I skip all the main meals. Once everyone is asleep at around ten P.M. and the food is safely packed away I can be happy and Relax. Temptation is out of the way again. On a brighter note. I am on the ABC again. I have just finished dinner and have sucsessfully stayed under 500 cals. :) I'm feeling great exept for the ocassional high cravings I have which I'm learning to deal with.

I haven't been around and I am kind of sleepy. I'm spending hours on wattpad, both reading and writing. It makes me feel great. But thats why I havent been on recently. this is also why I have been really busy.

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-PB =*

P.S. I will start of by saying, Hi I'm Potential Beauty aka James, I'm sixteen year old girl and I hate seefood. And I wish I could marry Ian from Vampire diaries.

Bleh

I feel tiered. I had strength training in aerobics today. I haven't worked out exept for aerobics and consumed like 1200 calories. I feel so tiered. Probably the whole 'aerobics thing' I hurt EVERYWHERE. Tish was awesome help today in Aerobics. I stopped earlyish because I'm partying tomorrow and I wanted to dance. I'm always the first one on the floor and the last person off it. I guess I'll fast and maybe have three shots with a pint of beer and thats it. I got into collage but I'm really confused if I should do commerce or Science. I can't figure out a whacky party outfit. NOT COSTUME... :P

SUCSESS better not lead to FAILIOR

So I did super well in my Boards!!!! I got a 89.7 average. ANA wanted a 90 but I'm sure she'll understand. a good reward for this would be not eating but the truth is I have to go out n celebrate with my friends and FAMILY FML. I cant NOT eat! I'm gonna try but what happens if I can't count the cals??????? I'm Already freaking OUT!

My board results are going to be out in an hour and i'm not even worried about them much. I had had nightmares about them yesterday but all I can think about is how i have had fifty six calories and havent worked out at ALL. I just want to be distracted so I wont eat. =/ FML I dunno how many time's I'm going to end up posting to keep myself away from the kitchen. I know I can do this. ESPECIALLY with Tish but it's still HARD...

Bye Bye Ana, hello Tish?

"Tisha. Call me Tish." The pretty Burnett told me, smiling.
"Where is Ana?" I asked freaked.
"Ana is gone." She said, smiling sadly.
"I want ANA! I can't do this without her." I exclaimed scared.
"You can and you will honey. Ana realises you are no longer completely hers. Her words can be ignored. You ate."
"Yes, I ate but I burned it all off!" I did so good yesterday, only to find out that she had left.
"Exactly. You burned it off. You consumed 768 calories yesterday and burned off 928 calories yesterday. You did so much better than we hoped."
"But if I did well, Why did she leave?."
"Because you don't need her. You need me! I can help you. Ana told me you could use my help so I'm here. Don't worry she hasn't abandoned you. She just got someone who can help you. And she'll be there when you need her the most. But so will I."
I stared at Tish and finally hugged her tiny frame. Not as tiny as Ana's but still so TINY when compared to mine. A welcoming gesture. An Invitation to control my life.
I turned around turned on my computer and started typing, playing Skinny by Edith in the back ground. "Welcome Home Tish. I smiled at her, and before I could turned back to the computer I could see a faint smile forming and I knew this was the beginning of a possible beautiful relationship.

YAY YAY YAY!!! FORRRR TODAY!!!!

Today morning when I tried to log into Pretty Thin, It went website not found when I refreshed the page it worked fine.... I had such a shock that PT wasn't there. Scared the Bejezuls out of me. So, so far yesterdays dinner was An "Epic FAIL" My neighbours and my brother watched me like a halk literally while I ate till I felt like trowing up. Sad really. Today morning, Ah such a wonderfully Monday morning, I have burnt 300 calories so far, consumed about zero and it is twelve fourty five. Though I will probably have a Mango A HUGE Mango before I go for aerobics  and one Lindor truffle, the red one before I do my Aerobics class, because I don't want that feeling. So How I plan to avoid eating lunch is, Taking a bit of food up and Flushing it down the toilet.Then watching thinspo's to kill the hunger craving.And avoiding dinner is relatively easy. By the time I come back from Aerobics it's around 7:30, when I will grab some more food, head up to take a shower and throw away that food. Then take a shower for an hour and a half.... I love my bath-tub... Until the food has safely been taken away. Maybe play some Dance Dance revolution and head off to sleep completely content.

FAIL, yet a success

"I don't wanna get fatter R, I HAVE to be thinner."
"Me too!" R, squealed on the phone.
"Ummm sorry R, But normal diets don't work for me. I can only do the extreme kind." I told my best friend in the WHOLE wide world.
"Me either. But I can't calculate calories. I can not eat something. But I can't eat and calculate."
"You can try to.. Ummmm I know fruits and vegetables, three fruits or vegetables a day and two glasses of Orange Juice."
"I know! I can't live without OJ!" She squealed happily.
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Though today I went out with this guy, It was sooooo date like, but NOT a date. I dunno how I went for a movie and lunch and ate about a tiny choco chip brownie with chocolate sauce, five sips of normal coke and little less than half a pancake with two spoons of chocolate. I think that is below like 500 cals. I also started AEROBICS which is SUPAH tiring. and I've been playing dance dance revolution!!!! So much funnn I've burnt like 270 cals already so I'm having ALOT of funnnn!!!! ANA has been away for a bit, but she came to me in the gym and when I work out most of the time. I have a feeling she is going to be there for dinner today so I don't eat and all.......